Keeping up with you could be my worst mistake I could ever make.
You see my darling I’ve been competing for your attention when in reality it should be the other way around.
I’ve read these fairytales as a young girl. Ones about these princesses and their princes.
They always came to the rescue for them and lived happily ever after.
Getting older I knew they weren’t true. But then I look around me and there are other stories out there.
Of men who love their women and women who respect there man.
These guys love their ladies so much they work out the kinks and try their hardest to learn and change some parts of them that they got used to do as bachelors.
They worked hard to chase after their love, and made sure she knew she was more important then other things that they enjoyed.
That’s what I want. Every women should want that,but most settle because they’d rather have a sometimes important role in a relationship then being single and alone.
Not this woman.
This women has been settling for to long. I’ve been settling with actions, thoughts, people…that list is way to long.
I know what I want.
I want the man that first chased after me.
Do you remember him?
I know that life has gotten to both of us.
That the past couple of months have been rough and we’ve been forced to change plans and ideas.
I’ve tried to talk to you, and you always say the same things.
First it’s an excuse, then finally an I’ll try and work on it.
That’s right where it ends until I bring it up again.
Do you think that I like to continually repeat myself?
No I don’t.
I’m already really tired of talking it out w you.
It never goes anywhere.
I have to be upset to get more time with you.
Do you think I like that?
No I don’t.
Do you ever wonder if it hurts me deep inside that you’d rather play online for hrs then spend time w me?
I don’t ask for all day every day.
I’d just rather not beg. I shouldn’t have to do that.
You say you love me, and I know you do.
Why don’t you want to spend time w me?
I have to ask you on dates now bc when I mention it all you say is yea we’ll have to do that then never do…that is a huge problem for me.
I have to beg you to cuddle.
I want your attention.
I don’t demand all your attention but I’d like more then I’m getting.
When we talk it’s like your not even there 1/2 the time.
It’s really grating on me.
Keeping up with you is wearing me thin.
That is the reason why I seem like a b*tch lately.
I’m trying to warn you and explain what’s going on before it ruins us.
You say your not a romantic but you used to try and for me that was romantic.
You used to want to do things with me all the time.
And that made me feel important and very loved, special and wanted.
Maybe it’s bc I’m always available.
Maybe I let you have it to easy.
I hope this gets to your heart and not your head.
I didn’t write this to hurt you, but to wake you up to the reality of my heart and thoughts.
I love you and I want you to be the one that makes me happy for the rest of my life but I can’t keep chasing you.
Keeping up with you could be the worst mistake I could ever make. It’s not me. I hope when you read this you remember.